World of Christie

helor...

2008-07-30T22:13:00.002+08:00

hmm...long time din come here. haha...

don worry i am fine.

now a day study, exam, and working....hmm....not really tired lar...coz it is my life. i have to face it.

last week, is his graduate...hmm...happy to see that he finish his diploma lor. now he is study at curtin for continue his degree....got bless him.

now...i got few dayz din see him. coz he go kl and singapore with his friendz lor. hmm....quiet worry him. nvm lar. he can take care himself .

boring ler

2008-06-03T19:48:00.001+08:00

hmm...darling go thai for trip...hai yo...stii got four days ner...i am so boring ler...plus now is holiday..duh....not watch tv..then slep..haha....meaningless life...MIRI TOO SMALL LA.

你

2008-05-19T23:21:00.003+08:00

你

在我心中，是那么完美，
是那么可靠，
是那么英俊，
是那么需要，
是那么重要。。。

橙色，是你最爱的颜色。
猫咪，是你最爱的宠物。
篮球，是你最爱的运动。
电脑游戏，
交友，是你最爱的活动。
家人，
朋友，是你最爱的伙伴。
自信，
温柔体贴，
多才多艺，
能歌善舞，
小鸟依人，是你渴望的对象。
唠叨，
啰嗦，
万事交待，
烦人，是你讨厌的动词。
顶嘴，
嚣张，
粗心，是你讨厌的行为。

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这就是这世上唯一的，特别的“你”。

哭

2008-05-19T23:02:00.002+08:00

哭。。
好久没哭了，

这一次，是为啥掉泪？

是为四川灾民？
是为思念情人/亲人？
是为学业/工作压力？
是为身体的不适？

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为了不让别人知道，
就利用了洗澡声盖过哭声，
刺痛的心，
越苦越让我控制不了。
哭着哭着，
分不清哪个是累，哪个是水。

冲完热水澡，
又躲回窝里，
静静的反省，
我怎么了。。。

慢慢的，悄悄的，
我也睡着了。
希望，
明天会是新的一天。

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my latest news

2008-05-05T17:44:00.002+08:00

hmm...long time din leave blog at here...so...wud i busy?? hmm...exam just over, performance for church over, and family day oso pass and i think no more...haha....

actually my line oso got problem...so...seldom on line lor...

oh ya....about my exam...i sit for four subject..but...i fail one lo..that is business sta. hmm....coz full of calculation...oh my god...my weaknsses.

hmm..i think no more special la..hehe...

conclusion...i am fine and i am happy. thanks for caring ya...muaks

terrible day for me!!!!!

2008-04-02T22:48:00.002+08:00

damn!! wud the XXXX...HAIZ...

midnight... got a bit quarrel with him...coz he don wan company me~..k la...my false.

morning...yesterday he say will go school..i though he will find me or may be bring me bak..but...no..

afternoon....been complain by my boss...at tuition centre... i teaching...but..got a parent call to my boss thier complain that y i ask their children go my house to have a extra class??

damn! i got say that ...that is not forcing...i just ask who wan ...then can go..then ...my boss though i wan to "tarik" her tuition cente student...wud the.. oh men...my extra tuition is at night...n then afternoon i working at her tuition centre...how i "tarik"?

u knw...i wanna to cry...coz..when she talk to me...all the wordz like nail..
but i really not wan to tarik the student ma~~ i just wan to earn more money n help them in thier weak subject....><

n then..after work..i tell my mom..about that. my mom ask me to resign..coz..if i continue oso meaningless...they think i am doing bad thing...then wud for to continue.n they oso haven give me salary for this month!! then i try to call d.n.c.h, he din answer...THAT IS THE TIME I NEED HIM...

actually my tears is going to come out..n i wan to resign the job...but...i don wan someone think tat i oso do everything or job half way~~ man!! then i pull back my tears, i continue the job... just becoz wan to prove that i got do wud he wish!!!

now..10.35pm..i got online..but he din msn me...k fine. i wait n wait..until i call him..i ask him..issit so busy? then he say he is playing game! STUPID GAME!!!

actually i wan to share with him about this afternoon..but?? my stlye is..when i am in stress..i sure will confuse n won directly say out my problem!! be he is not patient... coz i keep say n ask..y when i need him...he is not there...

something like blame him..but true ma!!! then he say few rude word..n say...if i don wan to say,,then fine..he oso not interest!!!

k..then i din disturb him anymore,,.

gua niag tripz

2008-03-23T11:45:00.002+08:00

hmm..22/3 i go gua niah with my bf, wahwah and teck ming.. hmm..quiet excited...
morning..of coz wake up n prepare lo..then i morning call bf...but~~~he cant wake up~haiz..
then we go breakfast n then go gua niah lo.
i thin knothing special to discribe la..

the most i wan to say is..

when we reach the end of the gua nia...painting wall...got a few ppl sit at a place..i though is rest...actualy is their friend fall into a dark hole..hmm....we cant see the end og the hole...may be too dark or may be it is deep.

we din wait until they safe the ppl....coz we scare will late to go back to miri..so..we go lo...hmm...i think nothing happen de la...wud i wan to say is....DO EVERYTHING DON BECOZ IT IS EXCITING....BE4 U DO IT...PLZ MAKE SURE IT IS SAFE.

wud i can say?

2008-03-21T20:14:00.002+08:00

ok..finally he come back..but how i knw? i saw his friend online...then i wait lo..see whether he will contact me or not? then he din...

until 8.15pm i call him...i ask him where is he..he say at home..i ask him y din contact me...he say busy for clean his car..zz...then i say when he reach cant contact me merh...he say HP NO CREDIT!!! (actually he can use msn, his mom hp to call or msg me ma....)

when i ask he...i knw he got a bit angry..then i say ok la..then i put down the call...

now..i cant control my tearz..

few minue later..he online~zz he sent: ya? then i ask lo...why when he go brunei won sent a msg or call me? why only when he din come back then just knw contact me? why he din contact me when he reach here?

why i wan he contact is..ya! honesty i love him...and other reason is...i WORRY ABOUT HIM!!!!! y he cant understand?

i really few that i am super hyper idiot..stupid @.@

friend i am ok! don worry. i will let everything gone!

t.t

2008-03-20T20:46:00.002+08:00

today...morning..my hp is off...coz of no batery..n oso becoz don wan open!! he go brunei...i scare i will call he..n he will say o distrub he! actually..i wan to go...but he say..my passport is expired..n expensive for renew..n i oso din go other place to play..so no need go....but..~ s the money is from he???

but i din fight with him tht i wan go...

then he say he will come back today...

wud at last...when i having dinner with my family at outside...a private number call me...is he,,guess wud he say?? though he will say he reach miri oledi, but..he say he will stay there...coz friend car broke down...but stil got other friend's car he can follow...but HE DON WAN!!! wtf.

that time i relly wan to shout n scry n score...but at last..i din...i just say ok.
but guys....u knw how is my feeling?

Christie is gone

2008-03-19T00:00:00.003+08:00

my mood go back like last time...suddenly feel down...the reason is...

~ when i waN to do something that is serious and important...they wont give me support or sugguest....only will say i won reach it! damn...man...i do wud u guys wan...so i change...but then?

actually this few dayz i worry n planning for my degree...then i ask mom n dad...but?? thier respone is...nothing special!!! just now i go out with my mom n my bro...we talk about this...but?? when it's my turn to discuss about my degree...my mom look like don care...but when it's my bro turn?? she keep ask this n that!!! dam!!! @.@

~ma, dad...i am ur daughter too...plz be fair..i really grow up oledi..i knw wud i should do..so..i plan it earlier..but?? wud respone u guys give me?
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n he?? last few day i ask he, where he wan do continue his degree..he say:"y? if i tell u , so u can plan to go together with me right??" omg..suddenly i feel like we r not couple....i ask him, the reason is not really will follow him...is coz i really wan to knw...and if can follow is better...coz got someone can take care of u. but wud he think is...i cant life without him.

~david, in other way to ask...y actually u don like me to follow u? and y u so scare i will follow?? y other ppl will accept...

i just wish that if we can toghter..then i will have someone take care me..
beside that...i scare that the uni u go is far from mine,,so how?
u oso not believe distance love la~~so????

sometime u make me blur. i don knw wud u like me? or y u like me...coz u owes complain this n that,...seriouly n honestly...for me..may be u r worse than me u knw?? but i din complain u...coz i love u...nature u...not a david that i need to change.

hai ya...don knw la...may be...GOD plan to let me n he go for different place to study n testing us...but how? i really not trust distance love.

my feeling now is..DAMN,...wanna shout, cry...n hope that got someone can hug me. someone promise me to take care of me n protact me. The someone sure is he...

but? wud i wish is i wish!! still need to see he wan or not...that is still his choise... ;< T.T

memorzz when prom nite of riam tek

2008-03-16T18:05:00.001+08:00

prom nite 2007 is pass long time oledi...but, y i stil wan to upload?? coz no reason..hehe...

before we go prom nite~~choosing, choosing

2008-03-16T17:30:00.002+08:00

the picture from here, is taken when the girl of my class, choosing wud we wan to wear~~~
that time i really don knw wud to wear, and don knw how to choose...so..i just follow wud my friend suggest lo...

have fun...

picture when we in class, sem 3

2008-03-16T16:52:00.002+08:00

most of the picture i taken by me!! hehe...some f the picture really funny!!1hahah

boring day!!

2008-03-16T16:34:00.002+08:00

so boring at home!! msn someone..he oso no hew me!! so...wud i can do??
suddenly i view my old pic...hehe...so..i upload it..haha...friend..sorry~~

here is some pictures that taken when we at lecture hall...

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2008-03-16T01:00:00.002+08:00

HMM...just come back from outside...just now go church with darling n then go play game....

the way i go church...my mom keep say that say this...haiz...coz the way from my house to church is far...wud i feel is...unfair...coz she wil allow my bro to pick his gf go to her sis house...u knw...it is more far...!!!! but my mom din score...then me??? she keep say that say this..

damn...u knw wud?? my heart broken...coz..i really feel that my mom is unfair..n..she won reach or do wud she promise!! and she simply hink other ppl!!!!

damn...mom...me oso ur daughther...y u treat me different when u treat ah bi?? wud u say is rubbish...wud u promise u will say u din say!!!!
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after church..i go playgame with my bf at cyblecafe,,, i just come back from there..i don wan he go back to play again...but he still wan...duh!!! now oledi 1am!!! and the game they play atleast need one hour!!

but...wud i can say?? u r my bf?? i love u? i scare u! wud else i can do??

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suddenly feel that no one care about me..no one understand me! no one care about my feel....#crying#

i knw i am stupid..but..i wan be myself..i need ppl care, ppl hug, ppl accompany!!!!
I AM A GIRL...I GIRL EASY GET HURT!! PLZ...PLZ...I DON WAN CRY!!!Y U ALL MUST MAKE MY TEAR COME OUT!!! I JUST WAN TO BE A STRONG N USEFUL GIRL!!!!!

hiS heart is broken becoz of she

2008-03-09T11:42:00.002+08:00

my younger brother, hudson...his heart is broken...becoz f his gf.
y??

> coz me n my mom n my dad not really wan he together with the girl...
~y?? becoz we heart many bad thingz about the girl from our friend,
~y?? becoz when i meet the girl in 1st time..my feel tell me that the girl not
really love my bro.
~y?? becoz for me n my mom feel that the girl parent is waiting my bro to married
thier daughter, coz they think that my bro is rich man.
~y?? becoz...the girl not respect to eldest ppl, and oso not respect to her bf.
she feel so proud somemore, when she show off to her friend that she go out with
all geng of guy, and she is only girl...in front of my bro.

> coz all of my family dont wan my bro been hurt, and been cheat by the girl...
> coz...my bro is change a lot becoz of the girl...

last few day..i try to talk with he,..but...from the talk..my bro is USELESS. and make me disspointed. coz he worry of his gf this and that...please...be gentleman...>< and dont let ur girl sit on ur head!!!

now...he is angry with me n my dad...coz he think that we r make story about the girl...actually...we din..n he think that we don like the girl is coz the girl is poor...oh my god....money not everything...

hope one day he can wake up, and find a true love...and wish that he won give up himself, and one day he wil knw y we will don like the girl.

bi~~ gambade...i will be there owes owes...coz i am ur only sis...i love u!
pray to god..it is really useful.

my Ist time

2008-03-07T12:10:00.002+08:00

06-03-08..night is my old old friend from batu niah wedding dinner at miri impirial.

and then, the groom ask my dad to help them as ma when dinner...n my dad ask me to accompany me lor..haha...at 1st...we plan wat we will say...most is my dad...but...at last....is me...hehe!!

this is the 1st time to be mc...hmm...i enjoy myself..and hope that the all customer n the groom will have fun too...hmm...oso got money lo...coz i have sing two song..haha...

wud i wan to mention is...finally i found my confidence, brave. i learn how to setter problem that we don knw will happen..like the singer's cd no sound..and i learn how to speak in good way..haha...i think la..hmm...

thanks god that HE give me this chance to improve myself. amen.

some of the customer say...i can go for full time MC..n some of them..though i got expirience be4...actually.....THIS IS MY 1ST TIME....haha..

and here...i wan to thanks to my dad lor...he got jelous oo...coz when the part i organise...some of my dad friend say that i am good than he...haha..then he jelous o...haha

n thanks my bf..he come for the wedding dinner oso...hehe...he oso say that he saw i reall grow up oledi...hehe...

My Valentine

2008-02-27T01:51:00.015+08:00

my valentine of this year is happy plus happy and a bit angry...now...i let share with u all....HOW IS MY VALENTINE...HEHEHE ...MUAKS

night~ of coz he come pick me..i wear nice nice a bit lar..haha...valentine bar~ he bring me go his house..he say calebrate with his brothers and their gf and his parent..of my god..this is the 1st point he make me angry..coz he say got special activity...then..is this...=,="~ reach his house, i din see got anybody..his parent is go out, and his brother oso...then i knw he kidding me.

after that, me n my Mr.right go to BA KUT TEA having our dinner.When we reach their, he directly go sit at a reserve table,and got put something at the table oso, then i say we cant sit there...coz may be other ppl booking. But he say nvm, just sit, dont care...and this is the 2nd point i angry, coz he kidding again!!!at the last, i just now He book it early, if not...no table for us lor...thanks dear.

picture below is taken when valentine day..hehe^^

hei...

2008-02-27T01:05:00.019+08:00

hmm, quite long time i din write my blog here...hmm...now..let me tell u how i calebrate my chinese new year with my classmate.. morning sure me go friendzz house lo...all we go 6 house...hehe... and then, our plan is we will go to our teacher house at night..but...hmm...all teacher are going out for dinner or they are busy...so..we spent our time at pizza hut and then go play bowling...but...it is full of booking..so we go to play archery.hahah...quite enjoy lar...

here have some photo...hehe^^

yeah..yeah

2008-02-13T17:52:00.004+08:00

yeap pi....tomoro is valentine...hahhaa....wud my dear will give ler...?

just knw i ask...he say don wan buy..coz last time oledi give me flower, and watch n many la

.... i think may be we toghter too long time, make he don knw can buy wud...honesty i oso don knw wud to buy n do for he...oh no....don wan buy ok ma?? waakakak.....

miss u guys ner

2008-02-13T10:42:00.000+08:00

hmm...today is wednesday. he start his work, but me...still enjoy my holiday. good is i can play, but negative is...i so boring la...some friend haven back to miri, haiz, miss my classmate a lot. haha..

hmm, countdown for two day..hehe, then can see them again, coz we plan to go for calebrate chinese new year at all classmate house.. waakakak....hope all of them can attend.

2008-02-11T00:27:00.000+08:00

hmm....few dayz din write blog at here... coz the 1st day of chinese new yr go to sarikei visit my grandparent n cousin lo... the next day come back to miri again... hehehe... get andpow lo...of coz

and then, tis few day keep go to friendz, cousin, and parent's friens house lo....get ang pow oso^^
but not many as be4 when i still budak. haha...

hmm....chinese new year...positive is can get angpow and meet many old friendz and cousin.. negative is too many food and make me cant control...now fat jor..haiz...hahahhaha

Finally....wuahahah

2008-02-04T16:22:00.000+08:00

hehe....new year new stly of my room. wuahaha!!! finally it really look like a girl's room!! haha..

actually i am lazy girl, my body so heavy. hard to move.but i dont like dirty n smelly thing. hmm... so, today i force myself to clean my room that are almost like store...haha. coz the size of my room so so small, and the thing i wan to put so so so so so many! @.@ how????? i ever think that ask my daddy to extain a bigger room for me...wao!

when i cleanning, i saw many useless thing, like before i collect newspeper that with nice pic, novel, and cooking recipe.... funny right?? but today i throw it all...hmm...so waste. beside that, i also saw the letterzzzzz that write from my stupid bro...gahaha* tze cheak, and my son!!! --> ah ming. huh?? who is his daddy?? i don knw. ><

wud else?? oh ya... so pity, i throw some cloth that i cant wear!!! I HAVE TO MENTION THAT not becoz i am fat than be4 , is becoz i grow up ler!! haha... tell u guys o~ some of them i never wear! wud a wasteful girl!!! hahah

beside throwing tis and that i try to change my table, television, bed position. hehe. now my room look like half is office half is bed room!! kakaka *V*

i hope that i can let my room this tidy and clean long time! hahah. ><

Christie's wish..

2008-02-03T17:12:00.000+08:00

hmm...my wish??

> of coz healthy

> rich..haha

seriously...

mm...i wish to forget all all all the unhappy, unmemoriable thing, and go for a new and wonderful future!!! BE A SPECIAL ME, PERFECT ME!!!

GUYS...u must too ya!!! muaks! don worry be happy! enjoy ur life when u r still in tis beautiful world! ;>

New Year, New World

2008-02-02T19:10:00.000+08:00

hmm...second month of 2008. so fast.
i hope i will have a great n wonderful n meaningful year!

so...at here, i wish my dearest friendz from dip com who are the 1st in take of 2007 happy n healthy everyday!

n also for my dear bf...hehe, wish both of us stay long n long n never end!

I LOVE U.